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This is my last xanga post ever...cross my heart, hope to die... I dont see the point of having an online journal ,cuz if i wrote wut was really going through my head, it prob wouldnt be a good thing..... or i would be viewed as an xtreme left wing antichrist or something...idk...i'll stick to my green memo pad...peace

 

today was so chill, took some pain killers for my wisdom teeth surgery, (no im not turning into rush limbaugh by the way) skipped class, and hung out with the most beautiful girl ever....and bluntly, she really is.

Oh did i mention Yellow Card are the bunch of biggest whining girls ever? They played at my college ( unfortunately my gf is a huge fan) and they had to stop the show early cuz the guitrist was "sick"...bs.... Hundreds of kids payed to watch, play the damn show you pansies.... oh well...could care less. Bob Marley played the day after he got shot in the chest with an ak 47, missing his heart by an inch......bob had balls.. yellow card lacks them..

My friend Jakes band, The Last Hope, is gonna be touring outside of LA CA! These guys rock, and are def amazing servants of god. They are so blessed.

Man, i cant wait til the warm weather, i just wanna sit in the grass...with you......kick off the birks, watch the birds, and just hold your hand........ but for now i guess just chillin in the dorms, taking long extended naps underneath the green blankets and countless annoying stuffed animals will do, while we watch Family Guy and drink bottled water... and admire the falling snow from inside the dark room...............GOOD TIMES!!!!

Yeah!
C'mon, yeah
Everybody loves my baby
Everybody loves my baby
She get
She get
She get

the same place in the woods never gets old..... i love it.... i want to die there when it is my time to die. I am gonna bury skeeter there when she dies, cuz she loves it there too.....god i wish people could be more like dogs. I wish i were more like a dog, skeeter at least. Skeeter is a huge part of my life. I love her very much, and i know she loves me. These 13 pounds of flesh and bones are by my side all the time as of late. I dont know wut i am gonna do when she dies.............

things im thankful for right now..... my pain medication and applesauce...!!!!

Gosh, i am on a track that is good. Im thankful, and getting out of a self-centered mode, although selflessness is something than can never fully be obtained. But striving for it is rewarding.

i saw two old men today chatting in a run-down, small, crappy mall today.....the only reason they went to the mall was, in my opinion, to find someone to search for that would talk to them....the mall consisted of the following stores.... a magazine shop which mostly sells porn, a barbor shop with mooseheads on the wall, a chinese restraunt, a dollar general, a used cd warehouse, and a goodwill....... these two old men were prob in their 80's, very lonely looking and happy to be talking to each other... i couldnt help but stop and listen to their conversation. They were reminicing about people, loved ones, friends etc.... i started to think...just how much people mean to me, my friends ive met, mainly in PA and GA. I wish i could say i mean alot to alot of people, but i dont, only a select handfew....... i made some friendships i thought would blossom......friendships i thought would consist of more than saying "hey" and "wuts up" over AIM everyother day. I want to be more than dust in the wind. I want to be a positive influence, not a ghost..., what happened? friendships....... what happened? distance? yes......but no....three people....are so dear to my heart....3 people will never betray me....3 people speak the truth....... 3 people wont watch me fade slowly into a comfortable goodbye..... 3 people will go out of their way for me, 3 people will keep their word, 3 people would follow through with their plans, 3 people... 3 humans i love so dearly.... 3 people that wont let distance or circumstances or pain, or emotions or anything slowly turn into a "goodbye, nice knowing you, im letting you slip into oblivion." I'm sorry if i hurt anyone i met, i prob didnt do it on purpose, im sorry if i didnt spend enough time with you, im sorry for being someone who seemed not to care, im sorry if i came across as an asshole. But friendships are more about quality than quantity...... *the 2 old men will not leave my mind*

http://www.geocities.com/howtodressemo/          < emo kids, this will help if you want to be really cool

I am blessed. And the blessings keep flowing. I have so much to be thankful for........ and i believe a big part of me being thankful is just watching my girlfriend...she is truly amazing. I have never seen a girl so happy, so loving, so caring of her friends and myself. Seeing her joy, gives me joy. Seeing her smile makes me smile..... i dont deserve a girl this beautiful, this caring, this AMAZING..... there is something special we have that is hard to explain. I want this to last. No drama, no bullshit, i just wanna mellow out and chill with her constantly....did i mention no drama? lol.....  I cant believe some people actually enjoy drama, all you emo kids..... but if that makes u happy, chill to some dashboard and cry.

All the years combine, they melt into a dream,
A broken angel sings from a guitar.
In the end there’s just a song comes cryin’ up the night
Thru all the broken dreams and vanished years.
Stella blue. stella blue.

When all the cards are down, there’s nothing left to see,
There’s just the pavement left and broken dreams.

In the end there’s still that song comes cryin’ like the wind.
Down every lonely street that’s ever been
Stella blue. stella blue.

I’ve stayed in every blue-light cheap hotel, can’t win for trying.
Dust off those rusty strings just one more time,
Gonna make them shine, shine

It all rolls into one and nothing comes for free,
There’s nothing you can hold, for very long.
And when you hear that song come crying like the wind,
It seems like all this life was just a dream.
Stella blue. stella blue.

 one and nothing comes for free,
There’s nothing you can hold, for very long.
And when you hear that song come crying like the wind,
It seems like all this life was just a dream.
Stella blue. stella blue.